The Buried Life: Part 2

So, I was originally planning on introducing this blog with "I GOT THE INTERNSHIP" and all that jazz...and I did!...But this morning I received an email telling me there was a mix up and they wouldn't be needing me for the time being.

So with that being said, having something given to you and then taken away can be very hard...But, I also know that I don't know what's best for me. 

As a believer, I need to look to Christ for direction...but also as a believer, this can be very difficult. It's only human to get so excited over something, but then get angry and confused over why it didn't follow through. I think at some point or another, we all deal with that...but I believe it's how we handle those moments that we truly grow.

I'm not gonna lie...I was pretty bummed. I've been congratulated by a lot of people and had informed employers of future plans, as well as turned down other plans for this internship. But harboring on this will get me nowhere. But if I look for the good in this, I will see that...

1) I DID get the internship!

2)  I looked for something to put my focus on, truly pursued it and learned what it meant to give it my all.

3) In a spiritual sense, I've been reminded to look to God in moments of uncertainty & as well as Who is really in control and knows what's best.

I'm still learning, and hope I never stop. And if the lesson means having disappointments in life, then so be it. 

You know, I'm not a parent...but I am a daughter to 2 PHENOMENAL ones. And as a nanny, I've gotten a taste of what it's like to teach a child...and let me tell ya,  it's hard. You don't want them to touch the stove. Why? Because they will get burned and hurt themselves. You don't want them to have bad friends. Why? Because you want and hope they become people of integrity and compassion. 

What's so fascinating about being a "teacher" is seeing how they choose to react in certain situations...like when that child touches the stove and cries in pain, it screams for its parent to hold them as they cry...or when a they come home in tears because so & so has hurt their feelings, you hope they come to you for comfort and reassurance in the person they truly are...despite what they've been told.

And I believe that's similar to how The Lord teaches us sometimes. He allows certain things to happen so that HE is the one you run to for comfort and reassurance. It's so that HE is the one we turn to when things don't go our way & to be reminded that our ways ARE NOT HIS WAYS.

And man...that's tough. So that's why I wanna close this with one of my favorite quotes from one of favorite movies:

" Any process you are going through will get tougher before it gets easier. That's what make learning a gift. Even though pain is your teacher."

And...

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."-Jeremiah 29:11